James Blunt - You're Beautiful Lyrics

To the one who is Beautiful...

Although I might never have you in my arms,

I believe tomorrow will take care of itself

If I treasure what we have today

My First Sale Transaction

Dear Diary,

I have been busy for the past few days. I have sold my house and the amount of paper works I have to do is just amazing. How much I hate paper works and form fillings. This is my first sale transaction and I have really learnt a lot from it. I supposed things always seem difficult and troublesome in the beginning but as time goes by and after many transactions, I think I will get used to it.

I made a couple of mistakes filling in the forms and I was excused because I am pretty sure that the clerk knew this is my first sale transaction. I almost laughed at myself of the mistakes that I have made. Everybody seemed kind and understanding enough to accept the blunders.

I was up early this morning at 630. The co-broke agent met me at 730 in the morning to get the signed documents. I was up way early before she got to my place. I did not take shower because I really planned to sleep some more after I met her but I had to stay awake since she came to my house again at 9 with the buyers to hand over the final deposit.

I slept at almost 4 last night and I woke up at 630. Can you imagine how sleepy I got later in the afternoon today? It was a busy and productive day but also a sleepy day for me. I double checked the documents that she handed to me and got ready to go to the office to submit the resale application to HDB. When I got to the office, I enquired at the counter on the procedures and the clerk explained to me patiently as if she knew I am new. I listened and I tried to grasp the information as good as I can. I did everything alone. My Manager was not in the office thus I had no one to guide me. I got to fill up some forms and as I filled up the forms, I coached myself to be patient about form fillings. I honestly hate form fillings and I knew if I still have nothing but hatred about it, I won’t be happy with my job. So there I was, acting like a coach to my distress mind.

When everything was done, I handed the papers over to the counter and I reminded them to submit the application by today. It is crucial because we really need to get it done by today as today is the last day of September. You see, there are racial integration quota policies that we have to meet before we sell or buy a unit of flat in Singapore. The quota is updated on every first of the month. It was a lucky thing for us that we managed to submit everything today as the quota for SPR for this month is still available for my block. It seemed nice that everybody was co-operative even though the forms I filled had some inaccuracies.

Oh Diary, I am beginning to feel a little pumped up right now. I don’t know but I am seeing what lies in the future if I just believe. Although this first transaction is my own house but it gives me the enthusiasm to strive for more, for myself, my family and the very beautiful person in my life. 

How are you Diary? I am good right now, Alhamdulillah. I guess I am slowly picking up the pieces and feeling rejuvenated a little about it all. Beautiful has been very inspirational to me and I am glad she exists in my life. It is rather difficult to explain but I think it is enough that I know what I truly feel towards her. Love is a universal language isn’t it? It does not matter where I am, what is most important is I know I have someone that will listen to me when I tell stories and one who will not get bored with my stories. I miss Beautiful everyday very much.

Should've Said No- Quinn Finn Puck

All of us must learn how and when to say 'No'...it can save lots of trouble...

Go Ahead, Laugh All You Want

Dear Diary,

I went to the meeting today and I was asked to 'go home' jokingly by the senior agents. Well it seems that the meeting is only for those who have not passed the CEA exam and have not had 3 transactions. I have not got 3 transactions but I have passed my CEA exam and so I am safe. I understood the new regulation. When I read about it, I honestly did not feel that I am affected. My manager might have misunderstood it. I sometimes wonder if he digest and understands what he reads because he always gives me wrong informations. There are a couple of times where he misinformed me of things and I had to get the correct informations from HDB call centre. 

That is the thing about being in this industry. Most of the old generation of agents are not very highly educated. Back then, the government is not strict of the minimum requirements to be a real estate agent. As long as they can do sales even when they speak bad broken English, they can be considered as an agent. So many complaints have been made against these agents thus the government is taking steps to increase the minimum requirements. It is about time the real estate industry in Singapore is to be scrutinised and regulated. 

I felt very challenged just now when they jokingly asked me if I did not understand the email enough to be present in the meeting. I defended and explain myself. One of the senior agents who has reached the Division Director level then asked me to 'go home' because I need not be present in the meeting. His remark invited a roar of laughter from the other agents and of course I laughed too trying to show him that I got his joke when I really felt like kicking him in his balls, give him one karate kick to his stomach breaking his intestines and punch him in his face so hard that his face would be disfigured. 

Most agents come from a humble background and they are not bound by any office protocols. They may be the Senior Division Director or Senior Group Director but one has to bear in mind that real estate agents got promoted not because of their qualifications instead they got promoted by their performance in sales. An agency does not take into account your personality, educational qualification and your aptitude. All they care about is how much sales you bring into the agency monthly. When you have achieved the target sets by the company, you will be promoted and carry the title like as though you are the top and most powerful person in a multinational company. That is how real estate agency functions. There are so many directors because there are so many divisions in an agency. The more divisions they have, the more salespersons there are and that leads to more sales and income for the agency. 

So even if you hold PHD in business or a rocket scientist by qualifications, trust me, you are nobody to the other agents until you bring in sales into the agency. My Senior Division Director does not even speak proper English with his dictions almost match the ability of a fishmonger speaking English. But who cares anyway because he brings in almost $2 million worth of sales for the company monthly. That is how he earns his title and status in the agency. 

I am cool about it all however their laughter today just gave me some sort of motivations and desires to prove them what I am made of. I was angry with them for laughing at me. They made me upset deep inside. Their laughter actually became the fuel for my journey in this industry. All I want to do now is to bring in more sales to the agency and walk with my head held high, shoulders back and a million dollar smile on my face. When I am there, they will know who I am.     

My Sunday Open House

Dear Diary,

I just came back from visiting and it was really a tiring and sleepy day for me. I helped myself to the food that was served in every house. Not that I was hungry but it was more of being courteous even though I can feel that my stomach was exploding. I haven’t had so much food in a day for so long and today seemed to break the pattern. I am not proud of it at all.

How are you my dearest Diary? It seems funny how I am struggling to find ideas on what to write to you now because just about this afternoon, I found myself eager to pour out what was on my mind. Perhaps the sleepy syndrome has just hit me. I did not feast freely on the food however I had a few of everything. Honestly it has been a long time since I attended open house invitations. For the past 5 years I only spent the first week of Syawal in Singapore and I went back to Subang Jaya for the rest of Syawal. I did not go for any visitings when I was in Subang Jaya. It was a quiet but of course relax Syawal for me. This year, there is no more place in Subang Jaya I can call my home. Home is long gone together with all the love I once had over there.

I miss Flying Babe, my car, my home and my life over there. Life in Singapore has certainly created a small scale shock in my life. Many of my relatives have come to know the fact and in some aspects, it is good for my career as now I can promote myself to the closest circle of people around me; my relatives. In insurance and property industry, you always go for the closest circle of people you know to create your first sale. I might have a cousin sister who is selling her private property I think she is toying with the idea now.

I am not hoping for her to engage my service instead I am rather afraid. I don’t know Diary. I am so new in this industry and I am fearful I might just screw up or did not perform up to her expectations. Well, it is ok Diary, I think I will still service her if she seeks for me but if she does not, then I won’t be affected by it. We are still family anyhow. However deep inside my heart, I would say that it is good if she engages me because it is always delightful and advantageous if I get to close my first successful transaction with people in my circle of relatives. It is just like my first HDB transaction.

Oh well Diary, I would love to write some more but I have to sleep. I have to attend a meeting tomorrow at 2 and start working diligently. Pray for me Diary.

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All Play And No Work Makes Me A Poor Girl

Dear Diary,

My house is sold once again and I hope this time the deal goes through without any problems. The buyer is a Filipino couple who holds Singapore Permanent Resident (SPR) status. When they came to view the house, I kind of get the feeling that they could be my buyer and I was right. It was not easy to close the deal with them as they initially offered the cash over valuation (COV) very low than what I asked for. It was so much lower than what my previous offer was. I had to counter offer them and the process altogether took about 4 days before they agreed on the price, terms and conditions.

I am glad that the house is sold so I can proceed with new listings and leads. My schedule has been a little haywire lately. I have got many leads from iproperty since I signed up as a member and I roughly have ideas of what to do now. I went to the office yesterday afternoon to get my manager to teach me a little of the documentations process. I got myself familiar and when they came to sign the agreement, I was sure I did not show any sign of clumsiness or ignorance. Perhaps there was a couple of times I needed to ask the co-broke agent before I filled up the option to purchase forms but those questions were general and I am sure any other agents would do the same because it concerns the buyer and it is only appropriate we asked the agent that represents the buyer.

I guess everybody in my family is happy with the deal. It is my first HDB sale transaction and I am happy about it even though it is my own house. Well, it is the process of handling it that I will learn and how much benefits it will be to me. My Manager gave me a little prep talk when I met him and I know I have not been discipline enough. He had noticed that I have lost some weight and I told him that it must have been the farming I do regularly. Only God knows how true it is. I have not been farming regularly. I don’t even know what I am doing.

Farming does not give me the result I had wanted but I am not giving up. It is just that I know I have to do it often and regularly. I have decided that I want to make the Malay society my target market and so I must not stop farming. Even my manager told me that when he did farming, he did not get the kind of result he wanted. Most calls are for room rentals and it is kind of taxing to handle room rentals. I guess most senior agents would agree with me but then again, if room rentals are the only available listings for me coming from the farming I did, why not? It is good for the practice actually.

Since I joined the property industry in Singapore, I have noticed how many opportunities there are if I am just discipline and hardworking enough to steal every opportunity that comes knocking on my door. I know it is not easy, it has never been easy but there are a lot of opportunities. Focus is what I have to do to excel and viewing is what I have to have to make money. Thinking of how I have progress, I can honestly say that I have not break my habit that I have developed when I was living in Subang Jaya. Oh Diary, it is true that the hardest thing to break is your habit. I am slowly breaking it, I am. I just need time and I am pretty sure I will get back right on track. How I miss those days when I was once so hardworking that I have been called a workaholic. Oh geez…Diary, what is wrong with me?

I supposed it is time for me to realize that I have loads of responsibilities in the near future. Seriously, there are many things that I have to think about. Play time is over now. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy but all play and no work makes me a  poor girl. Diary, don't give up on me ok.

Take care Diary, I will write again.

Beautiful In My Eyes By: Joshua Kadison with lyrics of jhojay

She Will Always Be Beautiful

Dear Diary,

My spirit is up and I am feeling so much different this morning when I woke up. I think I know why but I am not sure if it is true. I spoke my mind last night and I let it all out. I never planned for it to happen. It just happened spontaneously. I swear it was not in my agenda. Beautiful was being herself, soft, cool and simply sophisticated. I never mentioned about her to you before. Perhaps I have told stories about her but I never mentioned her name. She is Beautiful and there is just something about her that makes me go…errmmm.

I have read somewhere that says, a joy shared is double joy, a sorrow shared is half a sorrow. When I let it all out last night, I felt some weight is off my chest. I breathe freely now. I did not hide anything from her and the truth was all I gave her.

I am not sure if you ever felt like how I feel now. This feeling I am feeling is beyond description. I don’t even know how to talk about it. For all the time I have written to you, I am suddenly at a loss for words and expressions to describe what I am feeling now.

I supposed to heal one soul is to accept the truth about the situations that caused the pain. Have I accepted the truth about it? Maybe I have and that is probably the reason why I am feeling differently about it all. I can never have her and that’s the truth. No matter how painful the truth is but if you taught yourself to accept it then the pain will become less painful. I feel less pain in my heart now and I am ready to embrace the new changes in my life.

I have liked her before and I think I will like her still. I adore her personality. It makes me feel so at ease when I talk to her. The crispness of her voice reminds me that care exist in everyone of us. She could probably be the one that taught me how fortunate it is to find someone to care in the midst of my adversities. I should be thankful that someone like that exists in my life for she has somehow managed to bring back the smiles in my heart.

I have realized that to love somebody is a thing worth doing when we do not expect anything in return. We do not have a choice about it because love happens spontaneously and who are we to prevent it from happening when it is the heart that matters? I have come to terms with it. Regardless of the situations, I can only teach my heart to be contented, to be happy, to be honest with what I feel even if I knew I would never have what my heart desires. We cannot have our cake and eat it.

I am a calmer person now. Beautiful has probably swept my heart away with just her personality. Even so, I have told myself that people come and go in my life. Whoever it is, I shall just be delighted about it because I may not have the power to stop my heart from feeling what it wants to feel but I do have the power to choose what to do. I want to be calm in whatever I do and feel serenity in any situations I am in.

Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated with the involvement of what the heart feels. It is not really easy to make things clear and we thought that we can make it simple by simple living. The trouble with simple living is that, though it can be joyful, rich, and creative, it isn't simple after all. After all what I feel, I believe the best things in life are nearest: Breath in my nostrils, light in my eyes, flowers at my feet, duties at my hand, the path of right just before me. I shall not try to grasp at the stars, but I will do life's plain common work as it comes, certain that daily duties and daily bread are the sweetest things in life. Those are my principles now. I want to fill my heart with gladness and kiss all my sadness and troubles away on my own.

She will always be Beautiful in my heart. I will write again Diary. Take care.