I Am Sensitive

I Am Sensitive

Sunday, March 29, 2015

Aku Sudah Pulang



Hello Diary,

Aku sudah pulang dari Middle East. Sudah 3 minggu aku pulang dan aku tidak pula rasa jet lag atau kepenatan. Perjalanan aku alhamdulillah, syukur tiada apa apa yang bahaya berlaku walaupun aku hampir hampir terpaksa menukar jadual penerbangan aku dari Doha ke Oman. Di saat itu itu aku terasa amat kecewa dan marah dengan immigration officers di Doha. Begitu kurang ajar sekali mereka dan disebabkan merekalah aku hampir terpaksa mengorbankan flight ticket yang sudah di bayar dan ditempah. Hampir- hampir. Ya Diary, tetapi alhamdulillah syukur kepada Tuhan berkat doa aku dan dengan izin Tuhan, aku dapat berlepas. 

Pengalaman di Doha tidaklah begitu gah. Pada aku, di Doha biasa biasa sahaja. Aku suka sekali dengan Souq Waqif di sana. Begitu unik dan terasa aku di negara Arab. Di Doha mahal mahal belaka barang barangnya tetapi masih mampu lagi kerana exchange rate SGD besar bila ditukarkan kepada Qatari Riyal. Aku tidak shopping sangat di Doha kerana tidak ada apa yang aku ingin sekali beli. Ada juga yang aku beli seperti leather jacket, bag tangan, abaya, fridge magnet dan apa lagi aku pun lupa.
Aku tiba di Oman selepas ke Doha dan aku rasa aku lebih sukakan Oman dari Doha dan Dubai. Banyak yang boleh aku ceritakan pada kau Diary tetapi aku agak malas mahu bercerita kerana banyak sangat yang harus diceritakan kalau aku mahu betul betul bercerita. 

Tetapi kesimpulannya, Oman adalah negara yang cantik dan aku suka kepada Oman kerana Oman masih mempunyai identiti Arab dan aku banyak berkunjung ke nature wonders of Oman. Di  Doha tidak boleh banyak ku ceritakan, pengalaman pahit aku hanya apabila aku sampai dan pulang di airport. Aku suka souq waqif di antara banyak banyak souq yang aku pergi. Di Dubai, aku cuma sukakan old souq nya dan juga makanan cina hot pot yang aku makan. Tidak terasa langsung aku di middle east bila di Dubai. Aku lebih terasa yang aku berada di India bila di sana. Abu Dhabi biasa biasa sahaja. Aku pergi juga ke Grand Mosque dan ya, sungguh cantik sekali.  Apa apa pun, perjalanan aku di middle east selama 18 hari di 3 buah negara amat membuka kan mata aku. Jikalau aku diberi pilihan di antara 3 negara ini, aku akan memilih Oman.   

Sunday, March 1, 2015

The Replacement Cable

Dear Diary,

The traffic to JB was smooth yesterday and coming back into Singapore was too. This was a rare experience given it was Saturday yesterday. I was prepared to be caught in the jam for more than 3 hours but I did not, Alhamdulillah!! 

We had lunch at City Square and AK Noodles House. I love those noodles they have and the crispy bowl. It is one of my favourite eating place in JB. I simply love noodles more than rice. Dad liked what he ordered very much and so did mother. I ordered the same food like how I always do. This is the thing with me. I am so loyal to a menu that I find it sinful to change. 

After dinner I went to a nearby phone accessories shop and thank God they have the USB cable I was looking for. I was so glad as it makes me have 1 less worry to handle. Wait, do I have more than a thing to be worried about? Haha

I tested the cable when I got home and it works fine!! I woke up today feeling nervous about my journey especially the flight I am going to take. It is just something in my head right Diary? I am going to be fine. My mother is going to be fine. Insha Allah. This thing that I keep thinking about is playing with my mind. I must not allow it anymore. Ok never mind that.

Saturday, February 28, 2015

My Lost Cable Charger

Dear Diary,

I am all packed and ready to go when I realised that I have lost the cable to my action camera. I am pissed since it is not easy to find a replacement. It uses a different kind of usb cable. I hope I can find it elsewhere. I am on my way to Jb Holiday Plaza to find one. I really hope they have it there. 

It is important as I often use it to capture wide angle picture. It has 170 degree angel of view and that is what makes it a treasure. It is the Polaroid camera I bought if you have forgotten about it. It is similar to gopro only that it has no screen and its cheaper but gives similar results and picture quality as gopro. 

The flight is tomorrow and I must get the replacement cable by hook or crook. I must!! I am quite upset about it actually. I searched high and low for it but I could not find it. I have no idea where it is and I cannot recall if I had left it in Tangkak. Oh God....this is so frustrating.

Job Hunting and Worry To Travel

Dear Diary,

I am on a mission to look for a job once again. I wonder if it is going to be easy this time as I have aged. Hehehe....You know about the theory of aged people having difficulty getting a job. Well it is not like I am half a century years old but I am 37 going on 38 this year. Get what I mean now?
I think I have sent my cv to about 30 employers and 2 have called for an interview. I can go for one of it but I could not go for the other one as I will be away already. I did it made it clear in my cv that I will be away from Singapore but I guess they overlooked it. I explained to him and he told me to phone him back when I return to Singapore. 

I have done all my packing and my bag weighs only 18kg. My cousins live in Doha so we will be crashing at her house while we are there. We have booked the hotels in Oman and Dubai. International and domestic flights have been booked. Things are prepared, mostly the important ones but I am still not feeling excited. I have this worry on my shoulder. It is probably because this is the first time I will travel without my dad is it? Or...too much following of air crash news...or it is because I am unemployed? I don't know Diary. 

I will be with my mother. Just the two of us and I pray things will be alright.

Friday, February 27, 2015

Harap Perjalanan Aku Selamat

Hello Diary,

Hari ini aku pergi interview entah untuk kali ke berapa semenjak aku pulang ke Singapura. Sudah lama aku tidak menulis untuk bercerita. Bukan tidak ada masa tetapi mungkin aku malas sedikit sekarang. Aku sentiasa ada masa untuk menulis tetapi aku hanya menggunakan masa itu untuk berhayal. I am a dreamer, itu memang sudah aku tahu.

Sebenarnya engkau sendiri tahu kan yang aku akan pergi jauh sedikit kali ini untuk melancong. Daripada 1 march sampai 18 march aku akan berada di Middle East. Duit yang aku akan habiskan pun banyak juga sehingga aku terasa sedikit peritnya. Yelah, siapa yang tidak rasa sedikit gelisah apabila savings sebanyak jumlah itu akan dihabiskan dengan sekejap. Tetapi aku yakin, ini adalah sesuatu yang baik sebab hidup ini bukan untuk tinggal di dalam satu negara sahaja kan? Biarlah jauh perjalanan jadi luas pemandangan dan juga bertambahlah pengalaman. Itu sahaja yang aku percaya kerana di dalam Islam sendiri digalakkan kita belajar sehingga ke China.

Memang tidak semua orang yang berkongsi pendapat dengan aku. Itu memang lumrah manusia ya. Rambut sama hitam, hati lain lain. Aku sendiri pun pernah bercerita dengan kawan aku. Dia memang tidak pernah melancong ke luar negara. Bukan tidak mampu tetapi memang dia jenis macam itu. Duit yang ada hanya dia reservedkan untuk hari tuanya. Itu hujahnya dan memang tidak akan berubah pendiriannya. Aku pun diam sahaja.

Engkau tahu kan Diary, aku berkerja temporary di Giant sebagai cashier. Sungguh lucu kerana semuanya menyangka aku baru habis sekolah. Ada seorang kakak yang ingin kenalkan aku kepada anaknya konon mahu bermenantukan aku. Ya Allah, berdegup jangtung aku dan kebetulan kami, temporary cashier ini semua disuruh berhenti dari berkerja sebentar. Aku mengambil kesempatan untuk terus sahaja berhenti. Seram sekali aku. Yang kelakar sekali, bila ditanya berapa umurku, aku dengan spontan berkata aku berumur 27 tahun. Hahahaha…entah bagaimana tiba tiba sahaja terkeluar angka itu dari mulut.  Tiada niat untuk menipu tetapi secara tidak sengaja tercakap. Hahaha aku cuma berkerja selama 2 minggu sahaja, dapatlah aku gaji sebanyak $600. Cukuplah untuk membayar kereta dan insurance aku. 


Sebenarnya Diary, aku agak takut untuk berjalan kali ini. Tidak ada rasa excitement seperti aku pergi ke Vietnam tahun lepas. Aku tak tahu kenapa tetapi aku selalu sahaja memikirkan pasal air crash yang telah berlaku sejak kebelakangan ini. Yelah, ada tiga air crash yang berlaku di mana semuanya dekat sahaja di hati. Maksud aku, semua ada kaitan dengan Malaysia dan Malaysia itu boleh dikirakan my second county. Kawan kawan pun ramai di sana.  Entahlah Diary, sudah lama aku asyik terfikir pasal ini. Aku cuba juga untuk tidak ingat kan perkara itu tetapi makin aku cuba makin takut jadinya. Yelah aku tahu mati itu boleh berlaku di mana mana sahaja. Tidak apalah Diary, apa apa pun aku rasa aku terima sahaja lah dan berharap semuanya selamat nanti. 

Buat pertama kalinya semenjak aku memakai handphone baru ini, tiba tiba aku menghantar message pada dia. Terasa macam aku mesti menghantarkan khabar kepadanya. Cukuplah untuk mengubat rindu.

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Ed Sheeran - One [Official Video]: http://youtu.be/Ix9NXVIbm2A

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Spending Time in Tangkak

Dear Diary, 

I was supposed to work regularly until the end of February but the management at my workplace decided to stop our service temporarily until 2nd of February. This whole thing ruined my plan and I was a little bit pissed with them. 

Oh, you remember I told you I have gotten myself a temporary job? Did I tell you? Anyway, this temporary job is supposed to keep me busy until my trip to Middle East. I hoped this job can back me up financially as well but since this happened. I really got to rely on my savings. 

I have got about two weeks of free time and I have decided to spend it in Tangkak alone. Well, my best friend is in Muar, so I am sure I wont be lonely. It is about 30 minutes drive to meet her. We meet always whenever I am in Tangkak, we talk and we catch up on old times. I supposed we never get bored with each other. 

I packed my bag for the trip tomorrow and I noticed there were something inside the mesh pocket. I have not used the bag for a long time since I moved back to Singapore. I used that bag a lot when I lived in Subang Jaya. Whenever I came back to Singapore for a few days, it was that bag that I used. 

I have seen that 'something' since then but I ignored it until tonight. I unzipped the pocket and took it out. They were two photographs of her. I stared at the photographs and recalled how she gave them to me. She was everywhere and she still is. I put the pictures back into the pocket. She is no longer mine but the pictures are still mine and I intend to keep them just like how my heart keeps her presence in me.

Friday, January 2, 2015

I Am Ready To Go

Dear Diary,

I am leaving tonight to Tangkak with my cousins to climb Gunung Datuk tomorrow. There are only three of us so I invited Tiger to come along as she seems interested to go.  She said yes immediately and then she probably realises is it something she really wanna do so she threw me all sorts of questions about it. I supposed she said yes out of impulse.

I advised her of the pros and cons and even told her to watch my youtube video on Gunung Datuk. I am still waiting for her answer if she is coming or not as I write. Somehow, I knew I had it coming. Anyway, all my bags are packed and I am ready to go with or without her.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Still Have A Soft Spot For Her

Dear Diary,

The first thing that came to my mind was her. I heard of the news from facebook and I felt scared. I was afraid she could be on the plane. I hesitated a bit to text her but I knew I had to. Thanks to Allah she is at home. May she be safe come what may. 

I knew it then that I still have a soft spot for her. No matter how hard I tried to ignore it, it still haunts me. I imagined if she were on the plane and I became so scared. My heart was racing and my palms were sweating. I begin to wonder if I could really go on living without her in my background...

Happy New Year

Dear Diary,

Today is the first day of 2015. I would like to wish you a very Happy New year. May all that you wish and hope for come true. May 2015 brings happiness, joy, wealth, good health and everlasting prosperity to both of us and all our loved ones.

Saturday, December 27, 2014

My 2014 Watch Collection

Dear Diary,

I will stop buying watch now. I have had enough watches already. Fashion watch usually last about 3 years or so. I suppose I havemore than what I need. The recent purchase has added to my latest collection and needs. No more and so it is time to focus back on my savings. Malaysia, I will come back for good. Watch out for me ok.

Here are my watches Diary. I know you and I will never meet so I took these photos for you Diary. I want you to know the things I wear just like how you know what I feel. 

Which one do you think is my favourite Diary? No, I do not have a favourite watch because all of these watches have their own story. I love all my watches.






2014 Last Watch

Dear Diary,

Guess what happened last night? I bought a watch. Do you know how many watch I have bought this year? Five! Yes, I have bought five watches altogether. 2014 is the watch shopping year for me. I have never bought so many watch for myself. But I figured it is alright since I did not have any watch that functions anymore. It really has been a long time since I bought a real watch. All the watches I have had before were broken. I brought them to replace the batteries but the repairman told me they were all beyond repair. To repair them cost a few hundred dollars...I might as well buy a new one.

Last night this is what I bought, a Casio G Shock 200m water resistant. I need a sport watch, one that I can bring swimming. One that I can wear when I am out running or out on an adventure trip. I am not sure if you are going to like it. This is it Diary. I got the help of my brother to choose for me. There were too many to choose from and I simply got lost. I knew I wanted something bright and outstanding and of course something that looks dangerously sporty. I did not have any colour in mind but I knew I did not want black or white. So with the help of my beloved brother, I settled for something that will surely remind you of Bumble Bee. Hehehe