I Am Sensitive

I Am Sensitive

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Spending Time in Tangkak

Dear Diary, 

I was supposed to work regularly until the end of February but the management at my workplace decided to stop our service temporarily until 2nd of February. This whole thing ruined my plan and I was a little bit pissed with them. 

Oh, you remember I told you I have gotten myself a temporary job? Did I tell you? Anyway, this temporary job is supposed to keep me busy until my trip to Middle East. I hoped this job can back me up financially as well but since this happened. I really got to rely on my savings. 

I have got about two weeks of free time and I have decided to spend it in Tangkak alone. Well, my best friend is in Muar, so I am sure I wont be lonely. It is about 30 minutes drive to meet her. We meet always whenever I am in Tangkak, we talk and we catch up on old times. I supposed we never get bored with each other. 

I packed my bag for the trip tomorrow and I noticed there were something inside the mesh pocket. I have not used the bag for a long time since I moved back to Singapore. I used that bag a lot when I lived in Subang Jaya. Whenever I came back to Singapore for a few days, it was that bag that I used. 

I have seen that 'something' since then but I ignored it until tonight. I unzipped the pocket and took it out. They were two photographs of her. I stared at the photographs and recalled how she gave them to me. She was everywhere and she still is. I put the pictures back into the pocket. She is no longer mine but the pictures are still mine and I intend to keep them just like how my heart keeps her presence in me.

Friday, January 2, 2015

I Am Ready To Go

Dear Diary,

I am leaving tonight to Tangkak with my cousins to climb Gunung Datuk tomorrow. There are only three of us so I invited Tiger to come along as she seems interested to go.  She said yes immediately and then she probably realises is it something she really wanna do so she threw me all sorts of questions about it. I supposed she said yes out of impulse.

I advised her of the pros and cons and even told her to watch my youtube video on Gunung Datuk. I am still waiting for her answer if she is coming or not as I write. Somehow, I knew I had it coming. Anyway, all my bags are packed and I am ready to go with or without her.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Still Have A Soft Spot For Her

Dear Diary,

The first thing that came to my mind was her. I heard of the news from facebook and I felt scared. I was afraid she could be on the plane. I hesitated a bit to text her but I knew I had to. Thanks to Allah she is at home. May she be safe come what may. 

I knew it then that I still have a soft spot for her. No matter how hard I tried to ignore it, it still haunts me. I imagined if she were on the plane and I became so scared. My heart was racing and my palms were sweating. I begin to wonder if I could really go on living without her in my background...

Happy New Year

Dear Diary,

Today is the first day of 2015. I would like to wish you a very Happy New year. May all that you wish and hope for come true. May 2015 brings happiness, joy, wealth, good health and everlasting prosperity to both of us and all our loved ones.