Keep Calm And Say Astaghfirullah

Dear Diary,

How are you? I wish you well there, wherever you are. I had a lot to say to you before I began writing but it seems that I am having a mental block now and I am unsure if I can continue writing. Oh well perhaps we can talk about my work ya? 

I have gotten my own permanent desk in the office. I have set up my pc and it is ready to use. I have not organised my stationaries and documents yet. A part of me feels excited but another part of me feels scared. Taking over the desk from my predecessor also means that I am holding 3 accounts officially and that scares me. Why does it scare me? She has moved to a new office downstairs and that means she is nowhere near me if I need to ask her questions about the account I took over from her. I hate it.

I hate the arrangements that were made. I hate the on the job training I had. I hate how things are done so quickly without even consulting me if I would be comfortable about it. That is the thing. I wish my manager takes notice that I still need guidance to serve all these 3 accounts. I can always talk to my superior about this but I had done it before and things were better a little but after awhile, things go back to the usual. I cannot be talking to her frequently about my problems as I certainly do not wish to be seen as someone who likes to complain and making excuses.

I want to keep this job but I hate it when I always have mixed feelings about it. Where did the mixed feelings come from? Is it from me? Perhaps I must coach myself that it is all in my imaginations. It is about mind over body. When my mind is clear, then the worries will be gone. But, how can I not worry when I know help is hard to come by on that one particular account. I pray hard to Allah that things are gonna be fine for me at work. Saying “Astaghfirullah” has been my practice. I know I have no one else to talk about this fear and worry I have about work, but I know I have Him to turn to. He never pushes me away. 

The Power of Istighfar – Astaghfirullah (I seek forgiveness of Allah) 

People often forget the importance of the simple yet powerful dua (supplication) – Istighfar i.e., saying “Astaghfirullah” (I seek forgiveness of Allah). Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) recited this at least 100 times a day. Let us see the benefits and virtues of reciting this simple beautiful supplication insha Allah.

• Istighfar (Astaghfirullah) is the gateway of relief and happiness. Whenever you are in distress start reciting it and Insha Allah it will take you out of your anxiety and will put you in a peaceful situation and will give you happiness.
• Istighfar removes anxiety and duas are answered.
• Istighfar opens the door of sustenance.
• Istighfar opens the door of mercy.
• Istighfar opens the door of knowledge.
• Istighfar is also gateway of productivity.
• Istighfar relieves you. When you feel that sadness within you, when you are disturbed and frustrated, when anxiety surrounds you, say “Astaghfirullah” “Astaghfirullah”…
• Reciting Astaghfiruallah is an effective method of calming our self and wipes away the variety of worldly worries from our mind and body. It may also help us, if we are suffering from depression, it calm us and lessen our depression.
• Astaghfirullah also helps us to refrain from all forms of sins. Regularly saying this reminds us that Allah is everywhere and in this way there is very small chances of doing wrongful actions.
• Ibn Abbas (May Allah be pleased with them) said: The Messenger of Allah (peace be upon him) said,
  

  “If anyone constantly seeks pardon (from Allah), Allah will appoint for him a way out of every distress and a relief from every anxiety, and will provide sustenance for him from where he expects not.” [Abu Dawud].