I think it has been a day that I have not written but it seems like forever. I spent my time mostly thinking about things around me that has happened for the past week. There are not many good news that I can share with you instead there are many bad news. They are not the kind of bad news that bring tears to my eyes nor will leave me in deep depression. However, they are the kind of bad news that I am sure will definitely happen in everyone's life. They complete our lives and without them, we wouldn't be a more stronger person than we already are.
I have not managed to close any deals neither have I managed to bring any of my clients for viewing. I have not been actively farming neither have I been doing the mix and match of the leads diligently. I supposed that explains why I haven't been able to close any deals. Like my Manager said, this industry is for the quick, fast and furious. If I am neither one of those, I will lose out eventually.
I have been doing my work but I guess my problem is, I have not come out with a proper system for myself. I still do not know how to multitask and prioritise. In a Singaporean term, I am still blur like a Sotong. I know I want to speacialise in HDB residential be it sale or rent but there is no proper system for me to follow. I went to meet my Manager when I closed my first deal and he taught me about creating database with MS Excel. I could but my netbook is broken and my laptop is days away from broken too I supposed. I need a new laptop Diary. My netbook has been attacked by virus, thanks to the prohibited websites I frequent (you have to know it is not my hobby, but who hasn't nowadays?). And you know my laptop is almost 6 years old. I tell you Diary, it will soon be dead too.
Nevertheless, I went to buy some writing pad and files for me to organise my work. I am slowly creating a system for myself to work and I think I will now not become too lost or blur like a Sotong if I just manage to follow the system. I have now a couple of new files, an organizer and of course my new iPhone for me to start with. I haven't told you have I? I bought the iPhone on the last day of its promotion. I need a smart phone for my work Diary, signing under a corporate account, I got it at SGD$0 dollars and I got a couple of goodies for free!!
That's a good thing of being in a corporate world however, I had to sign a 2 years contract with the operator. My monthly subscriptions got slashed by 20% and I got the extra services such as roaming, voicemail, caller ID, live traffic updates for free for 2 years. *Grins* I paid nothing for that iPhone and I believe I can never get such offer in Malaysia. I am blessed Diary. Let's just make it into good use shall we? I will plan and strategise my work more professionally nowadays and learn how to prioritise my clients. Be with me Diary. I need you by my side.
Oh Diary, Flying Babe is out of my life now. She has found someone new that I supposed is better than I am. *Grins* Well, I am happy for her but I did not reply to her text neither have I written to her anything. I do not know if I ever write to her again in the future but at the moment, I chose not to. I am not angry with her but I supposed, I want to leave her alone for now. It has sunk in now. It is time for me to move on and do what I am supposed to do to carry on with my life. Someone in Facebook posted this, "In love, you have to love one another, but if she does not love you anymore, then you must love another one". *Grins* Nevermind, let's not talk about love first shall we, we will just stay focus to building my career here at home.
I am hurt Diary and I have not achieved what I really want here in Singapore. I know it all takes time and I have to be patient. Like the friend without a face says, no matter what happen I must keep on doing it, InsyaAllah one day!! She is right. I believe her. Simple truth about starting all over again is to keep on doing it without giving up because behind every dark clouds, there is a silver lining.
No matter what happens, I am home with my family and I am safe. I know that. Home is not where you live but where they understand you. A place not only of strong affections, but of entire unreserve; it is life's undress rehearsal, its backroom, its dressing room. I would say that peace is the other name for home. Where we love is home, home that our feet may leave, but not our hearts, where we grow up wanting to leave and grow old wanting to get back to. Home is the place where, when you have to go there, They have to take you in. It is good to be home Diary.
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